I hate my family

I hate my family. and that would be never changed in the future. I dunno. I know that my mom doesn't like me and treats me differently compare to my sister. I don't care. I actually love this kind of indifference. I'm used to this feeling. The most traumatic event ever happened to me is that even my sister threw a dish to me and I got injured, my mom didn't give a fuck. Because my sister spends a lot of money to my family, and I'm mental just like my mother said. I knoe this is the rule of life, but at least I don't want to be judged by other by my behavior. I just want to be loved, not just because I gave something to that person. just with no reason.